Uncertainty - Anxiety or Excitement ?

When you are uncertain, what comes to your mind: Anxiety or Excitement ?

Going back in time, I find, whenever I was uncertain, it was almost always Anxiety.

Why?

I was not confident of the outcome of my actions. I had no control over the situation I was being put into. I was not sure if I was doing the things right.

I thought I knew what I am going to do in next 6 next six months. Where I will be in the next 3 years. How I will be in the next 10 years.

Now that a whole new change is coming... there is huge amount of uncertainty.

But now there is excitement.

Why?

I am confident of my actions. I think I can turn the situations to my favour. I believe I am doing the right thing.

But, I have no clue what I am going to do in the next 6 months. I do not know where I will be in the next 3 years. I do not know how I will be in the next 10 years.

This uncertanity should create anxiety. But no, I am excited instead.

When in uncertanity, I was anxious but I could see the future.

Now I am excited about this uncertainty but something blinds me off the future.

And that's where the Irony is !!!

I think I just have to be prepared for everything, anything and then just go with the flow of heart !

Do you HAVE to bitch abt your EX to get over them ?

Do you HAVE to bitch about your EX in order to get over them ?

I'm still searching for an answer to that question for the last 5 years...
I've seen my friends slashing invectives at their ex-girlfriend or ex-boyfriends in order to get over them.

I guess it gives them a closure to say to themselves that "I'm OVER you !!".
But I could never bring myself that brink of lowliness.

But now I realize that it's not lowliness, but a necessary step to get over your EX. Unless you do that, you never really get over your EX. I've never done it in public. I've done in my mind, but only sometimes felt guilty about it. Not always. Actually most of the time it is really a satisfaction to have a closure. I guess I've never reached that point of closure. I still have residual feelings which are going to be there for the rest of my life, unless I find someone of that equal potential who could provide the same emotional and psychological compatibility.

I wonder when I'm really going to say "I'm OVER you ..... !".
I just hope that this instance comes before I have to slash inventive at her when under the influence of booze and more hopefully... before someone finds me !

Five years of living in rejection and you really cannot distinguish between love and limerence.

Limerence is a cognitive and emotional state of being emotionally attached or even obsessed with another person, typically experienced involuntarily and characterized by a strong desire for reciprocation of one's feelings, but not primarily for a sexual relationship (although it can further intensify the situation). The term was coined by psychologist Dorothy Tennov to describe a near-obsessive form of romantic love.^[1] Limerence is sometimes also interpreted as infatuation, or is colloquially known as a crush, but in reality it is something much different. In common speech, infatuation includes aspects of immaturity and extrapolation from insufficient information, and is usually short-lived.

For those who are in Love... check out if it really is Limerence !!

Dedicated to Binoy ...!!!