Stop Asking What is the Purpose of Life

On a day you were bursting with happiness, did you ask yourself this question. No. Only when life gets a little sedate, you ask. You need a purpose to life only when being alive is not sufficient. Right now, the biggest thing in your life is that you are alive.

The mind is looking for a purpose because people have not experienced life in full. If your experience of life becomes deeper, your question will disappear. Life does not need a purpose; it is a purpose in itself. It need not lead you on to something else. Being exuberantly alive is sufficient in itself. This is the beauty of Life.

If I show you one side of my hand, you cannot see the other side. This is so about everything. Even if you look at a grain of sand, you'll be looking at one part of it only. We see everything in parts, Life too.

We sense Life by our sensory organs. And that is not enough to realize even a grain in full. We get only bits and part. Not every bit in full. Same with Life. No matter how many bits we gather it'll never be full. That's Human Life.

Once you realize that Life does not need a purpose, just to be alive is great.

[Excerpts from Cosmic Uplink, Economic Times]

FOUNTAINHEAD...

“FOUNTAINHEAD” depicts four kinds of men:
1. Man who should be
2. Man who could be
3. Man who cannot be and knows it
4. Man who could not be and does not know it

I wonder which category I fall into. Ellsworth Toohey is the closest I can get myself to. The man who cannot be and knows it. I have done things Toohey has done “Enshrine mediocrity…” but I have not shown anything to “raze all shrines”, unlike Toohey.

Sometimes I feel like Peter Keating, confused and give in to doing things the “collective soul” would appreciate. In fact I’m contemplating celibacy just so that I could be perceived as an idiosyncratic, stolid, quintessential celibate. These, I’m not sure if I’ll be able to achieve. And even if I do, will it make me happy ? Happy only if I’m successful at what I do for a living. Here successful is synonymous to filthy rich. If you are "that" everybody appreciates whatever you are. I think I should leave that for time to tell.
If I can bring myself to achieving these attributes to my character, no matter where I land up, I guess, Howard Roark would be the man I come closest to.
Most people are mixture of Keating and Toohey, including me.

We know Roark is what one should be. But we avoid being Roark. Its’ like being Cipher from MATRIX who would rather dwell in the dream world rather than the real world. Being Cipher wouldn’t amount to anything. Being Neo, Trinity or Morpheus is hard and the thing (belief) they were giving up their life for, did that amount to anything they had perceived ? After NEO wins, there would have been abominable politics, guile systems to satisfy few chauvinists and snobs. There also lurks the possibility of machines attacking again, consolidating their enslaving supremacy.

Still, there remains the difference between “achieving something” and the “way you choose to achieve”. I know that I’ve made the choice. I have to learn why I made that choice – as THE ORACLE puts it.

Excerpts from My Diary [What have I Learnt Today… 7th July, 2007, Kolkata]

Maturity

In words of Stephen R. Covey, “Maturity is a balance between courage and consideration. ”
Courage to put forward your feeling and conviction with a consideration for others’ feelings and convictions, especially when the matter is important to both.
When I confronted her about my feelings, I was too much into “consideration” part rather than the “courage” part. I simply did not have the courage to put forward my real feelings. Now that I think about it, I had fared "good" enough that day. But “good” is worst enemy of “best”. I should have done my “best”, but I did only “good”, or so do I think.I was too much “concerned” about how she would take it. I was too pernickety about what she would she think of me and if I would be able to sustain any kind of relationship with her.
So, to be more mature I have to balance the “courage” and “consideration” in dealing with people.
Excerpts from My Diary [What have I Learnt Today… 30th May, 2007, Kolkata]

Carnal Desires...

How to call the tune of carnal desires....?
But first..., the question should be,
Shall we deny the very thing that makes us squeal...?
Yes, if it leaves a lament and feeling of guilt. Lament refrains from realizing "what has happened cannot be undone" and trammels the contemplation of future prosperity. So, to get good riddance of guilt, annexation of carnal desires is only but sacroscant.

Now, the most difficult part, how to crub it?
At this point of time my fingers rests as I cannot put forward one indisputable solution. I have failed myself at every resolution to crub my libidinous thoughts from shutting down my brain cells. But I have not disdained myself from these fiasco.
No matter what, I'll have to learn to find ways to keep my insatiable coitious longings from taking over my senses for momentary pleaseure in a compromising position and ridiculous after-effects.

Excerpts from My Diary [What Have I Learnt Today, 14th July 2007, Kolkata]

LOVE

Love is the quintessential human emotion that defines the unfathomable human character.

Excerpts from My Diary [3rd March 2008... B'Lore].

Here I am...

Here I am... Now WE are active here.
We - Me and my Irony...
All emotions have gone into a whiff of air. I feel emotionless. I write less of this diary.
How did I get here? Why did I not see this coming? Will I get over it? Why do I write less of this diary? Have I stopped Learning? [Info: My diary is titled: What have I learnt today!].
It seems I have...
I have become reactive instead of being proactive. I try getting all the emotions back into me. I even tried to go into a trance of silence, but it seems, pursuit of idiosyncratic character has turned me into a prig. I wanted to bring back the emotions of past. I tell myself I'll move on, but I am apprehensive of my future, struggling with my present and past is the only thing I contemplate.
Linga was right, I have to let go off the past. Now that is what I have to learn.
Remember, Just Do It !!!

Excerpts from My Diary [What Have I Learnt Today... 20th April 2008, B'Lore].